So I almost made it through the first week. It started getting harder yesterday. I think he is ready to come home too. He was so cute, he said he's getting tired of sharing a room with another guy. Haha! I'm ready to share my bed again. I slept SOOOOO good the first night he was gone because I had the bed all to myself, but that is now old. I am not sleeping good. There is something about knowing that your husband is there to protect you.

On another note, I went to the doctor and I saw the little baby :-) It was so cute to see the baby kick his/her little feet all around and to move. The baby actually looks like a baby now! Well, an alien like baby at least :-) But, the doctor said everything looks good. I just have to go back to get bloodwork done for something or other. Routine, but he measured the baby and it measures at 14 weeks! Good size baby. I thought that maybe they were off with the due date by maybe a week or two, but the baby is measuring exactly to the due date. Good deal :-) I still can't believe I am pregnant sometimes. Weird. My cloths are in that uncomfortable stage so I pulled out some of my maternity clothes from Samuel. They half fit. I was able to wear one of the shirts to work, but the pants and most of my other shirts are still too big. I think I need to go get a pair of comfortable pants. I can't wear my regular work pants anymore. They button right in the middle of my stomach and it hurts. Well, sweatpants are my best friend :-) Everyone have a good day!!!

Maybe I forgot to say, Josh left yesterday for the first of 8 weeks of training to be an assistant manager with Wal-Mart. He comes home on the weekends, but he is gone the whole week. He is in Coventry, Rhode Island. I love him :-)

And I am bored. Oh goodness. Josh isn't going to be home until Friday and I already feel like I have nothing to do. Although I have a ton to do in my apartment. I really have to get motivated. The hardest thing for me to do while Josh is gone is cook. I have to remember to feed myself! I miss him already, but he is doing really good. He got there fine and is going out to one of my favorite restaurants...Cracker Barrel. BOO HIM! No but I am happy that he is doing great. Anyway, I have to go figure out dinner for my baby boy. Have I ever told you that I think he is the most adorable, perfect, cuddly, handsome, lovable boy ever? I don't know I think I'm bias :-) I'm actually going to go tickle him and smoosh his face...be back later!

Awesome Awesome movie and unbelievably clean. Very few curses, no bad sex scenes and extremely interesting! I highly recommend it!

I can clean anytime. I saw this thing on Christina's blog that says " A clean house is the sign of a wasted life" I have to agree. So, instead, I am going to go to the movies with my husband! We wanted to see Fireproof, but it is no longer in theatres out here, so instead we are goin to go see Eagle Eye. So much more fun than cleaning! Off we go!!

When in my life am I not going to have to clean every day? Just tell me? I'm thinking it's when I have a million kids and just make them do it....hmm...well until then, must go clean on my Saturday! Wish me luck!

Thought I'd do one of these things!!

31 Things

1. Where is your cell phone? Next to me on the computer desk
2. Where is your significant other? At work.
3. Your hair color? brown
4. Your mother? Elizabeth
5. Your father? Rudy
6. Your favorite thing? My son(always!) & husband (sometimes..hehe! Just kidding!)
7. Your dream last night? Yes, it was weird.
8. Your dream/goal? To get rid of my fruit flies? Ok serious? To be able to stay home with all of my kids and not have my husband go away a lot..
9. The room you're in? Living room
10. Your hobby?Blogging!

11. Your fear? Losing my kid or husband..But I trust God!
12. Where do you want to be in six years? Hmm... School! Having more kids!
13. Where were you last night? At my apartment having a Bible Study.
14. What you’re not? awake at the moment..must nap after this!
15. One of your wish list items? A Swiffer
16. Where you grew up? New York baby!
17. The last thing you did? Put Samuel down for a nap
18. What are you wearing? Black work pants, button up shirt that is barely fitting anymore!
19. Your TV? Is off..Nice and quiet
20. Your pet? My kid?
21. Your computer? a HP
22. Your mood? Tired/confused
23. Missing someone? My husband
24. Your car? family car: 06 Hyundai Elantra (BAD BUY- DON"T BUY IT) and an Old Saturn
25. Something you’re not wearing? shoes....
26. Favorite store? The grocery store...I hate cloths shopping!
27. Your summer? Is over officially!!
28. Love someone? My hubby :-) He told me last night that he always knew he wanted to marry me :-) So cute
29. Your favorite color? purple!
30. When is the last time you laughed? Last night when Josh tried helping me with meat loaf. Hilarious...
31. Last time you cried? Last night when Josh told me he always wanted to marry me :-)

Ok..So we went to the doctor yesterday and it seems that Samuel has viral pneumonia instead of bacterial, so basically they can't do anything about it..It just has to clear up. They also just said that he has very bad asthma and that he has to be on a steriod twice a day and his other nebulizer treatments 3 times a day. He cannot miss a day at all and cannot miss a treatment at all.. Today I am bringing him back to the pulmonologist and I think they are going to order an allergy test to see if anything in particular triggers him. But, even though the doctors report was a little grim, I know that God can heal him and I'm believing that!!!

Yup...It's not been 2, but 3 weeks. Samuel has gotten worse again with being sick. I am about to go into the doctors office and raise holy hell if they do not find out what is wrong with my son. There is ABSOLUTELY NO REASON that he should still be sick while on not 1, but 2 steroids every day and an antibiotic and 2 nebulizer treatments. I'm tired of hearing the same thing. Something is wrong and I'm not leaving their darn office until they find out what it is.... I AM FURIOUS. How is it exactly that he has been doing really well then this morning he wakes up choking and coughing again with a fever? Anyone care to explain? I am so angry. Please pray for his doctors, because I may hurt them if they don't find out what is wrong with my baby boy. OK.....Done venting...Thanks for listening (reading)...

I am going to buy Samuel a drum set for Christmas.....Am I going to regret that?

I was just thinking today of how much my life has changed. Haha and I was able to laugh. I had been talking to Susie about my Christmas list. I cannot believe, that at 23 years old, the top thing on my Christmas list is a swiffer mop. I am too cheap to go out and buy it myself ( and a little broke!). I also want new pots, pans, serving stuff, a vase.....Things have certainly changed. Then I thought of how excited I get when Samuel goes to the zoo and very emphatically says with a deep growly voice "Its a bear" when he sees the bear. Or how my heart wants to jump out of my chest when Samuel got excited today after putting a quarter in one of those toy things and saw the toy come out and just about jumped out of his skin cheering. My life is very full of happiness. It took me a while to get to the point of realizing that it is ok to grow up. haha! That I'm really not missing that much! I look at a lot of single girls out there that are my age and all they can talk about is the next bar they are going to go to or about how much they hate their jobs. How unfulfilling!

So today I brought Samuel back to that zoo right near my house. That is the greatest thing ever. It is free, it has a lot of animals, a nice park and a track to go running on. So he was finally able to name all of the animals and even worked up the courage to almost touch one of the goats. He is usually terrified of them. They stick their heads out of the gates and wait for people to feed them. He won't go that far, but he did get close enough that his hand could have touched one. After that, we went to Pizza Hut. SAMUEL IS HILARIOUS. We went alone and I was hysterical laughing the whole time. My son is so funny. Every time he would take a bite of pizza his eyes would get HUGE and he'd say "It's gooooood momma." Then when he was done he'd say "More pease" Holy cow the kid ate way more than I did. After we were done eating we went to pay and they have one of those claw things that catches the stuffed animals (TOTAL WASTE OF MONEY) So I convinced him to instead put a quarter in one of the machines that gives out those little toys. This one gave out a tatoo. When it came out, he jumped up and down , put his hands in the air and started cheering. It was so precious. He really thought he won something and didn't realize its because he put the quarter in. After that we went to visit daddy at work. Samuel was so excited and happy. It's the first time in a long time that i've seen him so excited. He's definitely feeling better. I bought him the memory game today. Gosh, toys have changed so much since I grew up. They have a memory game from every TV show you can imagine. I just wanted the basic old fashioned memory game. But I ended up with The Backyardigans memory game. Whatever. Anyway. He came home, took a long nap, I took one with him (SOOO NICE) and now we're heading off to grandpas house. What a day. I had a really awesome day off :-)

Hooray, I have today off of work. I can't wait until I never have to work! haha. That would be nice. Anyway, Happy Monday!!!!!

I mean, really hit rock bottom today. I was at the gym the other day and working out and I saw my stomach and was thinking "sheesh all of this exercise and it won't go down." Then it dawned on me, I'm pregnant...oh ya..then its ok. Well I was already feeling a little sad after that, then I walked into the grocery store and saw a young girl about my age in a really cute outfit and her hair done really nice and I LOST IT. I burst into tears, turned to my husband and said "I LOOK OLD!! I JUST WANT TO BE AWAKE ENOUGH TO STRAIGHTEN MY HAIR!!!!!" I continued to cry without stopping for about 10 minutes. It's official....the hormones have kicked in....

BUT JOSH GOT A JOB AS AN ASSISTANT MANAGER!!!! Hooray!!!!! This is a great stepping stone while waiting for the job with the FAA. Thank the Lord. This is such a relief. We will now be able to get a 2 bedroom apartment and I won't have to work when this baby is born. THANK YOU JESUS!!! He is a great provider :-) I am proud of you Josh!!!!!

I have such fond memories of Elim. I must say I miss it quite a bit. I know that all of you pretty much that are on my blog are from Elim. Do you guys have any suggestions for schools that take Elim credits? I did the two years there and I am looking to go back to school this January. The only problem is I would basically have to start from scratch with the schools here because Elim credits are not relevant to the degree I am going for. I don't care what school I get an associates from, I care about what school I get a bachelors from. So any suggestions would be great!

I am going apple picking hopefully soon with Samuel. He is getting better, but he is not quite there yet. Poor kid..Hope he's better soon :-(

Saw the new baby again today. Looks like a big round blob. Strong heartbeat, measures perfectly, and is doing wonderful. 10 weeks and counting!!! Did anyone watch that show 17 kids and counting? hmmm.... Interesting...anyway, I love my new baby already. Looks smart (really because the head is about 10 times the size of its body at this point..haha.. ) Hope everyone is great!!!

So my three worst fears are realized.....


1.) Samuel is really sick with pneumonia

2.) I have a mouse in my apartment (MY BIGGEST BIGGEST FEAR!)

3.) All while Josh is gone for the weekend....


Ok God, what is the point?

So as ironic as it is, I have this strange peace about me. Last night it all started. Josh went to drill (he goes once a month with the National Guard) thinking that he was coming home last night and leaving today for the day. Wrong. He was leaving last night, called me in a panic and said "I HAVE A HUGE PROBLEM, YOU HAVE TO PACK A BAG I"M LEAVING IN A HALF HOUR!" So I race all of his stuff to him just as the bus is pulling out....He's going to be gone until Sunday. Then, fear number 2. I go to bed like a responsible adult at around 10:30. I get a phone call from my husband at midnight. I get up to talk to him because everything was so rushed. Right as I get off the phone with him what do I see? Oh ya...A little black mouse running out of my bedroom. My first instinct? Run like hell to a chair. So I did just that, called my husband back in a panic and what did he do? Anything a typical mean male would do. Laugh hysterical. "Your on your own babe. Sorry." So I called my brother and after a few mouse jokes about nibbling at my feet, asking for it to cook for me, la la, I finally got my brother, my sister, and her boyfriend over to try and kill the mouse. Guess what happened? Nothing. I slept at the house by myself, dreaming of the mouse, and when I wasn't sleeping, I was hearing it run in and out of my bedroom. It is a miracle I am alive today. No one understands my fear of this little mouse.

So then, comes Samuel. He has been sick with asthma for about 2 weeks now. He is on pulmacort, xopanex, pregnisone, and cingulair. What does that add up to? HYPER. Anyway, he wasn't getting better so I kept bringing him back to the doctor. Nothing. So tonight I saw he was really delirious and just didn't look right. So I brought him to the hospital. What did they find? Pnemeunia and an ear infection. But thank God I have been treating him for the asthma because it could have had long term effects on him had I not been treating him. Thank God! He is finally of the pregnisone which is a really serious steroid, but he's still really being drugged up. Please pray for his healing. I now have to add an anti-biotic to the mix. My poor baby.

So there is my weekend so far. So what is God doing? I prayed a prayer that God would help me to trust him in every situation. I would like to personally thank God for bringing up EVERY SINGLE situation he could think of. But, you win God...I trust you!!

Thanks Sarah!! I got it! SOOOO fatigued lately. Holy cow. I forgot this part of pregnancy I guess. Everything is going good here, God is still faithful and meeting our needs. Nothing really new to blog about. Oh ya, doctors appointment on Monday! Yay!! I get to see my baby :-) I'll let you know how it goes!