So my three worst fears are realized.....


1.) Samuel is really sick with pneumonia

2.) I have a mouse in my apartment (MY BIGGEST BIGGEST FEAR!)

3.) All while Josh is gone for the weekend....


Ok God, what is the point?

So as ironic as it is, I have this strange peace about me. Last night it all started. Josh went to drill (he goes once a month with the National Guard) thinking that he was coming home last night and leaving today for the day. Wrong. He was leaving last night, called me in a panic and said "I HAVE A HUGE PROBLEM, YOU HAVE TO PACK A BAG I"M LEAVING IN A HALF HOUR!" So I race all of his stuff to him just as the bus is pulling out....He's going to be gone until Sunday. Then, fear number 2. I go to bed like a responsible adult at around 10:30. I get a phone call from my husband at midnight. I get up to talk to him because everything was so rushed. Right as I get off the phone with him what do I see? Oh ya...A little black mouse running out of my bedroom. My first instinct? Run like hell to a chair. So I did just that, called my husband back in a panic and what did he do? Anything a typical mean male would do. Laugh hysterical. "Your on your own babe. Sorry." So I called my brother and after a few mouse jokes about nibbling at my feet, asking for it to cook for me, la la, I finally got my brother, my sister, and her boyfriend over to try and kill the mouse. Guess what happened? Nothing. I slept at the house by myself, dreaming of the mouse, and when I wasn't sleeping, I was hearing it run in and out of my bedroom. It is a miracle I am alive today. No one understands my fear of this little mouse.

So then, comes Samuel. He has been sick with asthma for about 2 weeks now. He is on pulmacort, xopanex, pregnisone, and cingulair. What does that add up to? HYPER. Anyway, he wasn't getting better so I kept bringing him back to the doctor. Nothing. So tonight I saw he was really delirious and just didn't look right. So I brought him to the hospital. What did they find? Pnemeunia and an ear infection. But thank God I have been treating him for the asthma because it could have had long term effects on him had I not been treating him. Thank God! He is finally of the pregnisone which is a really serious steroid, but he's still really being drugged up. Please pray for his healing. I now have to add an anti-biotic to the mix. My poor baby.

So there is my weekend so far. So what is God doing? I prayed a prayer that God would help me to trust him in every situation. I would like to personally thank God for bringing up EVERY SINGLE situation he could think of. But, you win God...I trust you!!

Thanks Sarah!! I got it! SOOOO fatigued lately. Holy cow. I forgot this part of pregnancy I guess. Everything is going good here, God is still faithful and meeting our needs. Nothing really new to blog about. Oh ya, doctors appointment on Monday! Yay!! I get to see my baby :-) I'll let you know how it goes!

Can someone please explain to me how to put the baby counter on the side and how to change my blog around. I am not sure my mind works that way. Help please!!

So the interview didn't go as well as we had planned or hoped for. First let me say that God is a good God and He does EVERYTHING for a reason even if we don't understand it. There are some things in Josh's past that have come up with his background check. He was honest about those things, but it is really delaying the process. I don't want to go into details, but please pray that the paperwork that is needed will go through and that Josh will have patience. I felt so badly for him. When he told me that basically it didn't go as well as he had hoped he sounded so down. It made me sad. At the same time I was angry. Not at Josh, but at the situation. These things happened almost 10 years ago and it is still coming up. But after talking to my mom and my sister, I realized that God is bringing this up for a reason. So please pray that 1.) Josh can see the good of this 2.) that we can be patient and realize that God has our future in his hands 3.) Whatever needs to be worked out or dealt with, will be! Thanks for the prayers.. I know it is going to be all good no matter what happens and I still think my husband is a great man!

On another great note, NO more morning/afternoon/night sickness! It has finally faded away. It was only really bad for about 3 weeks. I am finally getting back to exercising and eating for that matter. I am noticing that my stomach is getting a little more round already. I am 9 weeks tomorrow.

Also if you can say a prayer for Samuel. His asthma is acting up a bit and Josh and I are in the midst of making a decision about how to treat it. The doctor wants us to put him on a steroid twice a day until pretty much April. I am not so comfortable with this at all. I am torn on what to do. Usually what I do is give him the nebulizer with the albuterol every 4-6 hours depending on what he needs, then I give him pulmicort (steroid) twice a day for a week, then once a day for another week, but I'm not sure that's going to work. So please pray for wisdom for Josh and myself. We are going to see the Pulminologist and discuss our options for him. Lets pray healing!!!

Today is the big day for my husband. He is going on his hopefully final interview with the FAA to go over his security check. In English, basically we will hopefully find out when this move to PA will be happening. I am so proud of my husband. Today I saw a look on his face that I haven't seen before. He looked truly proud of himself. I think he tends to not give himself enough credit about how much he does do. I mean really if you think about it, he was a single guy, going to school, doing his thing when we found out we were having Samuel. Instead of running away and not taking responsibility, he was the first to say " it is going to be ok. I will make sure of that. " So we got married and he continued on with his schooling, work, and taking care of a very pregnant wife. Then came the day Samuel was born, he was right there supporting me, holding my hand through the whole thing. As soon as he saw his son, pride just was all over his face. He was my lifesaver those first few weeks. He did all the diaper changing, getting me things I needed while I recovered. Just to go back to school and work after working so hard helping me. He has been a constant supporter financially of this family and has done an amazing job. Never once have we felt that we weren't going to make it financially. In the midst of all of this, he graduated with his Bachelors degree, became an officer in the military (huge accomplishment, lots of sacrifice!) and now is on his second baby. All of that hard work is finally starting to come through. It hasn't always been easy, as a matter of fact its been hard a lot of the time, but Josh took in in stride. Not always perfectly, but to the best of his ability. Josh I am so proud of you! Thanks for being the rock of the family. Love you!!!!!

I will keep you guys updated on what goes on today!!

What is everyone's view on homeschooling?

Do you remember these things? haha..by the way, they don't work at all...

Grandpa & Samuel
Gerber baby? Isn't she beautiful :-) Oh this is Jael my neice on her dedication!
Smiley girl :-)
Me and my man :-)